Mistakes

Holy f’ing hell.

I care deeply about my work quality and what I do. I have been known to rush through a job to try and get everything done. Once in a while I make a mistake that can be easily fixed – a typo, a count error etc. I normally catch these mistakes before anyone knows about it.

I find mistakes that have been made by other people. I try to fix them if possible and let the other individual know that there was a problem. If I can’t fix the problem I will let other people know that can fix the problem. Apparently, calling attention to our weaknesses and mistakes is not a quality that they want me to have. I came back from deployment in May to find our Maintenance bay had problems. I don’t know why the problems existed nor where they came from. I simply knew that something was wrong and that it needed to be corrected. I fixed the problem.

What I learned today is that they don’t want problem solvers. They expect things to go without error and they have no resolution in mind when a problem appears. If you are the one calling attention to a problem you must be a problem. What they want is for me to sit quietly when something goes wrong and ignore the issue. I can do that – but I don’t want to.

I’m going try and not let this get to me because I do care about my work. Its a shame they don’t.